Thursday, 16 February 2012

We Found A Way Back Into Love

Love Song - 311 ( All Time Fav )

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you


Thursday, 9 February 2012

Bits and pieces , a mini encapsulation of the blogger

Being me, still young but having all this different level of inputs which I am facing trouble to comprehend and organize them to be relevant and not misleading for me or others to use . Most of the time, being coached by my mentor and bestfriend , soon to be husband on how to handle the abstract and inconsistent information has made me strong , assertive and emotion-less most of the time . Indeed I am still searching for how to manage this and trying to provide myself with systematical and methodical solutions, I sometimes were perplexed with the way I handled problems and situations back in school so calmly and considerably efficient until I forget how did I end up getting out of the mess , escaped my punishments and achieved my goals ,lastly,  being where I am today. Well , the me today is no one to be proud of anyways , yet I think with all the handful mistakes and problems I have created and solved ,I guess I deserve credit for being such a brat and being able to alter my prospects 360 .Today, handling problems and consulting others has become my major expertise, well I tend to make it look like I am so good in doing it , nonetheless , the real deal behind the scene is that truthfully I struggle , everyday , every second of my life to ensure that today , I did my best , I have filled my day, today with my highest effort and passion to make my day optimally meaningful . Its agonizing to be someone who is always chasing perfection . As I accept the statement , nobody is perfect , I look at it by few perspectives , according to my conveniences . I tend to be bias in evaluating cliche statements , as I always have something to rebut or argue . I live life with arguments , I love justifying , I love listening to good or bad answers from my companions when I am around them and having to think that I need to counter or support the inputs that they have provided me with . I enjoy processing data and trying to make the best output ever that I find useful for me and for others to understand and learn from .

My Muqqadimah

Its 11 pm, my first night of blogging. I guess, I am in need of a place to discard some of my irrelevant heavy emotions. From what I've  learned, negative emotions makes the body heavy and sluggish, so you will be exhausted and moody most of the time. I guess I have too much in my mind and I need to share some of the vital issues I am battling with in life, don't worry I promise you, my dilemmas are quite astonishing, most of the time perplexing yet to some people it has been interesting. I guess basically , when reading my future posts , you would be overwhelmed by my not-so-exciting yet I live with passion life stories . Peace out , assalamualaikum. Syukran Jazillah .

A little something

This was written two years ago, March 10'.Enjoy :)

pandangan pertama kau kata aku sudah kau cinta
pada mulanya aku ragu
ragu akan cinta yang kau bawa
hairan sungguh makin lama kau aku izinkan mendekati hatiku
hati ku yang sebelum hadir dirimu diselubungi kelam dan rindu
langkah demi langkah kita ambil bersama
walau kadang ada terdetik bimbang akan kesilapan yang akhirnya aku bisa merana
aku merayu padamu kekanda
hatiku ini jangan kau persia
cinta dan manja hanya ku pinta
buat santapan kasih tercipta
tika ada sangsi dan curiga
jangan kanda tuduh tanpa usul periksa
kerana di sini adinda berkata
hanya kanda satu satu nya sang arjuna buat adinda
memang benar aku kurang matang
membuat keputusan tidak berfikir panjang
maafkan aku wahai sayang
tidak berniat untuk melalukan perkara terhalang
kerana sebenarnya aku memahami
jiwa terluka akibat perbuatanku sendiri
maaf dipinta harap sayang fahami
bahawa dinda cuma kurang bijak dalam menafsir soal hati
dinda di sini teguh berbicara
mengatakan bahawa kanda seorang yang dinda cinta
ayuh sudahlah berhenti bergaduh
adinda sudah tidak larat mahu mengeluh
mari kita mulakan muka surat yang baru
agar dapat bersama bahagia seperti dahulu